I just cried brutally to my mom cause that was actually terrible. :[ I literally tried to stop myself from crying almost the whole time.

I cannot take care of kids. (they scary)

I was shaking, i got yelled at, my drink kept spilling, while a crowd of parents where behind me,I was EXHAUSTED, YET WE HAD TO KEEP DOIN THESE DANCES!! it was hot outside, everyone was more experienced, my clothes are sticky and wet,couldn’t focus, and wanted to go home.

ETC!!

in summary, I wanted to hurt myself cause I felt so bad :[

And ofc I’m not blaming anyone, I’m just not experienced at all.

:[ I’m okay now though I’m glad I’m not there anymore! AND I DIDNT EVEN GET A CHANCE TO PULL OUT MY BUMBLE BEE FIGURE. RAHHHHGGGGHH!!!!!